Ten decisions shape your life, you'll be aware of 5 above, 7 ways to go through school, either you're noticed or left out, 7 ways to get ahead, 7 reasons to drop by,
When i said ' I can see me in your eyes', you said 'I can see you in my bed', that's not just friendship that's romance too, you like music we can dance to,
Sit me down, Shut me up, I'll calm down, and i'll get along with you,
There is a time when we all fail, some people take it pretty well, some take it all out on themselves, some they just take it out on friends, oh everybody plays the game, and if you don't you're called insane,
Don't don't don't don't it's not safe no more, I've got to see you one more time, soon you were born, in 1984,
Sit me down, shut me up, I'll calm down, and i'll get along with you,
Everybody was well dressed, and everybody was a mess, 6 things without fail you must do, so that your woman loves just you, oh all the girls played mental games, and all the guys were dressed the same,
Why not try it all, if you only remember it once, ooooooooooooooooooooooo,
Sit me down, shut me up, I'll calm down, and i'll get along with you,
Recently, at work, we've been really analysing our astrological charts, partly because it's fun but also I think we're trying to learn a little bit about ourselves and our relationships.
My chart came out pretty good really, it says lots of things about me being nice and warm-hearted and having vitality and stuff but it also says quite a bit about me being a bit self-centered and submerging my true feelings, which is probably quite true to be honest. Annabel's came out quite differently and kind of made out that she's actually really good, which in someways is quite surprising but actually it sort of feels like it makes sense. Where mine is talking quite a lot about my pride being 'abnormally developed', Annabel's says things like 'There is no better combination', 'you are a person of charm, originality, and spontaneity' and having some ability to inject exactly the right amount of humor into things. It really does go on about how good she is. I'm not sure really if she has an old-world gift for prophecy but thats probably something that you don't find out if she does until a bit later on.
Probably one of the most interesting things for me is when you see how star signs relate to each other. For me and Annabel its really positive. It mentions that we have a feeling of "fatedness" and that we have an unusual similarity of thinking which is quite true really because people are always saying that we are similar in a lot of ways and almost that we could finish each other's sentences and communicate without speaking. After that it says that Annabel and I together are 'extremely beautiful and high-minded' and that 'Each one has what the other lacks and needs' which seems really positive. The last bit kind of says the Annabel is likely to have 'intensely idealised feelings' about what I symbolise for her and that she sees me as magical in some ways, which she would never admit but I think that sounds quite true, but then again I am really quite self-centered.
The other thing that happened to us recently is that yesterday Annabel got moved at work from sitting near me to sitting downstairs in an entirely different room. I'm a bit sad about it to tell you the truth but you can't really make a fuss out of it because that would probably be a bit childish, but we can't see each other or anything. I'm a bit worried that she'll make a lot of new friends down there and wont really fancy going to lunch with me anymore and that I might not fit in with all of her new friends. She did mention that we might set up one of those air-tubes that people in old offices put messages in to send to each other and that we could talk that way but I don't think it's that likely to happen and she was probably just trying to cheer me up a bit.
So this is probably the last post about me and Annabel Hodges, at least for the moment, because I don't know if she'll forget about everyone she's left upstairs at work but I felt it was something I had to write about. Also it's Annabel's birthday today and I wanted to try to write her something as a sort of birthday present, even though I already bought her a ticket to see Band of Horses. But then she did take me to see the movie Whip It where Ellen Page took her top off so maybe that's almost even.
This is the last entry in my week of dedicating Weezer songs to Annabel Hodges and I think this song is maybe the Weezer song that best describes us and how we get on, it sort of sums up all the other songs and our relationship in general. It has a lot of lyrics in it that I can relate to:
'I'm a lot like you' 'I think I'd be good for you, and you'd be good for me.' 'I'll bring home the turkey if you bring home the bacon.' (This one makes me think about when I buy a house I decided to get one with an annex that Annabel can live in and how we'd both have to sort out mundane daily things, like getting food from the supermarket and stuff, but it would be quite nice I think). 'I think we'd make a good team,' 'Goddamn, you half-Japanese girls, do it to me every time.' (Annabel is not half-Japanese really, she's half Malaysian-Chinese or something, but you know what I mean). It turns out that I'm actually writing this last day on Monday rather than Saturday, this is maybe because I found it a bit too hard to write on Saturday, the day before Valentines', also I was a little hungover from drinking on Friday. The thing about these sort of gestures where you let someone know how you feel about them, they never work out exactly as you planned really.
(El Scorcho, rock n' roll!)
Goddamn, you half-Japanese girls, do it to me every time. Oh, the redhead said you shred the cello, and I'm jello, baby. But you won't talk, won't look, won't think of me; I'm the epitome, of Public Enemy. Why you wanna go and do me like that? Come down on the street and dance with me.
I'm a lot like you so please. Hello, I'm here, I'm waiting. (oh) I think I'd be good for you, and you'd be good for me.
I asked you to go to the Green Day concert; you said you never heard of them. (How cool is that) How cool is that? So I went to your room and read your diary. "Watching Grunge leg-drop New Jack" through a press table. And then my heart stopped "listening to Cio-Cio San", fall in love all over again. (Oww!)
I'm a lot like you so please. Hello, I'm here, I'm waiting. (oh, what could it be now) I think I'd be good for you, and you'd be good for me.
How stupid is it? I can't talk about it. I gotta sing about it. And make a record of, (my heart) How stupid is it? Won't you gimme a minute? Just come up to me, and say hello. (to my heart) How stupid is it? For all I know you want me too; and maybe you just don't know what to do; And maybe you're scared to say: "I'm falling for you."
I wish I could get my head outta the sand, 'cause I think we'd make a good team, And you would keep my fingernails clean. But that's just a stupid dream that I won't realize, 'cause I can't even look in your eyes without shakin', and I ain't fakin'. I'll bring home the turkey if you bring home the bacon.
I'm a lot like you so please. Hello, I'm here, I'm waiting. (waiting, oh) I think I'd be good for you, and you'd be good for me.
(I'm a lot like you) I'm a lot like you. (I'm a lot like you) I'm waiting, oh. I think I'd be good for you, and you'd be good for me.
In this song, Rivers is talking about how being in his garage makes him feel safe and how he can just be himself without worrying about what anyone thinks. I like to think this is how I feel when I'm around Annabel and when we're talking to each other. We've got a lot of the same interests and stuff. We both really music and go to a lot of gigs and festivals together and we share quite a lot of the same opinions about all that stuff. We both really like Phoenix and we both really don't like The Big Pink for example. It's nice to have someone with similar opinions to yours to talk to sometimes. If I'm really honest, we do also both like quite a lot of stuff that some people think is a bit geeky sometimes, like comics, and we can talk about them together which does make me feel quite safe. Annabel does laugh at me sometimes though. The song also mentions Kitty Pryde, who was played by Ellen Page in the movies. Ellen Page has become a little bit of a sore subject in our relationship lately after I said I wanted to marry her. She really did get annoyed about it. I don't get annoyed when she's talking about Michael Cera all the time, like he's some massive big-shot or something.
I've got the Dungeon Master's Guide. I've got a 12-sided die. I've got Kitty Pryde And Nightcrawler too Waiting there for me. Yes I do, I do.
I've got posters on the wall, My favorite rock group, KISS. I've got Ace Frehley. I've got Peter Criss Waiting there for me. Yes I do, I do
In the garage, I feel safe. No one cares about my ways. In the garage where I belong. No one hears me sing this song. In the garage.
I've got an electric guitar. I play my stupid songs. I write these stupid words And I love every one Waiting there for me. Yes I do, I do.
In the garage, I feel safe. No one cares about my ways. In the garage where I belong. No one hears me sing this song. In the garage.
In the garage. Neaarrah!
In the garage, I feel safe. No one cares about my ways. In the garage where I belong. No one hears me sing this song. In the garage.
In the garage, I feel safe. No one laughs about my ways. In the garage where I belong. No one hears me
Quite a lot of the time Annabel and I spend together we talk about relationships and quite a lot of that time is me talking about girls. I think Annabel likes to hear about it, but it is a bit weird sometimes and she gets a little annoyed. I talk about the girls I meet and about trying to find a perfect girl, which is hard because your idea of what is perfect is always changing. I recently developed a bit of a thing for Ellen Page which annoyed Annabel I think because before I was talking about maybe marrying her one day, if it came to it, and I think she feels like Ellen Page has sort-of pushed in the queue a bit. This song doesn't exactly describe our relationship right now but it's more about the way I see things going. It's pretty much a conversation I imagine we'll have one day and it's pretty much a thank-you for listening to me talk about girls all the time.
Suddenly our shortcomings don't seem to matter that much Your IQ is 20 points low and I'm no Six-Foot Hot-Look All-American Man
Sad to say I pushed you away Waiting for "Mrs. Right" You never gave up devotion Waiting for me, you'll always be my girlfriend I too am waiting for you, I'll always be your friend
I commend your stubborness, without it we'd never got this far I am done with Perfection, chasing her leaves me with nothing but pain
Unlike you, she isn't true She's got her own concerns You never gave up devotion Waiting for me, you'll always be my girlfriend I too am waiting for you, I'll always be your friend
Devotion Waiting for me, you'll always be my girlfriend I too am waiting for you, I'll always be your friend
Relationships between two people can be pretty complicated. This song seems to describe how my relationship with Annabel has changed over time and how sometimes she can be pretty short with me but most of the time we're really good friends. We also spend a lot of time talking and coming up with all sorts of really good plans but we don't actually do most of them in the end. The bit about waking up the next morning reminds me of the time Annabel let me sleep on her sofa after our office christmas party. I think I was still a little drunk when I woke up and it was really too early, but she had to leave to have brunch with some friends of hers and I had to get home on the bus. I'm not sure if she ate poached eggs at brunch, but I do remember her saying something about poached eggs.
Raise the window Its getting hot in here All these breathers And all of these suckers Shake my hand now Pleased to meet you Your skin is pretty But underneath you're a monster
Are we friends now? Am I your brother? Can we bleed together? Are we lovers?
Lets sew our pants together 1,2,3,4,5 Lets climb right in forever 6,7,8,9,10 Then wont we all be so clever? If we sew our pants together
Wake the next morning One below the waist But you want poached eggs And I want to go to the bathroom
What do we do now? What do we make of this? Can my blood flow? Apart from your stitch?
Lets sew our pants together 1,2,3,4,5 Lets climb right in forever 6,7,8,9,10 Then wont we all be so clever? If we sew our pants together
Lets set our hair on fire Lets throw our hearts in the mire Lets sell our eggs to any buyer We've made a liar of desire
We've made a liar of desire We've made a liar of desire We've made a liar of desire We've made a liar of desire
Lately I've been trying to convince Annabel Hodges to come to Primavera Sound music festival with me, but she seems pretty reluctant to come even though lots of bands she likes are playing and she knows I'll keep the apartment tidy. Aside from being a sort-of Primavera rallying call, 'Holiday' also reminds me about when we went to Minehead together and we had, what I thought, was a pretty good time. Annabel tells me they speak both Catalan and Spanish in Barcelona and she speaks Spanish so that bit about 'but we don't understand anyway' is only half true.
Let's go away for a while You and I To a strange and distant land Where they speak no word of truth But they don't understand anyway
Holiday Far away To stay On a holiday Far away Let's go today In a heartbeat
Don't bother to pack your bags Or your map We won't need them where we're goin' We're goin' where the wind is blowin' Not knowin' where we're gonna stay On a holiday Far away To stay On a holiday Far away Let's go today In a heartbeat.
We will write a postcard To our friends and family In free verse On the road with Kerouac, Sheltered in his bivouac, On this road we'll never die... Let's go away Let's go away for a while You and I To a strange and distant land Where they speak no word of truth But we don't understand anyway
Holiday Far away To stay On a holiday Far away Let's go today In a heartbeat
This one is about how I fear Annabel might end up as a spinster and sometimes I think about maybe sacrificing myself to stop that happening. It wouldn't be too bad as we do get on quite well and I wouldn't get too lonely either. She doesn't really have any snakes but I am also slightly worried about her 'recreational' drug use.
My girl's a liar, but I'll stand beside her. She's all I've got and I don't wanna be alone. My girl don't see me, when she's with my friends. She's all I've got and I don't wanna be alone.
No, there is no other one. No, there is no other one. I can't have any other one; though I would now I never could with one.
All of the drugs she does, scare me real good. She's got a tattoo and two pet snakes. Nobody knows me like her. Nobody knows her like me. We're all we've got and we don't wanna be alone.
No, there is no other one. No, there is no other one. I can't have any other one; though I would now I never could with one. (Uh woah!)
No, there is no other one. No, there is no other one. I won't have any other one; though I would now I never could with one.
I wanted to let Annabel Hodges (who sits near me at work) know how I feel about our relationship, so I decided to dedicate a weezer song to her every day for a week. 'Why Bother?' was the first song that came to mind. It perfectly illustrates how vulnerable I feel knowing that she will probably desert me sooner or later and how, aware of this, I want to protect myself from being hurt. 'Won't you knock me on my head' is about how Annabel's always hurting herself or falling off her bike and how sometimes I'd like to act as some sort of pain-surrogate for her so she doesn't have to go through it all on her own all the time. I'm not really sure about the bit about 'whackin'.
I know I should get next to you. You got a look that made me think you're cool. But it's just sexual attraction. Not something real so I'd rather keep whackin'.
Why bother? It's gonna hurt me. It's gonna kill when you desert me. This happened to me twice before; it won't happen to me anymore.
I've known a lotta girls before What's the harm in knowing one more? Maybe we could even get together. Maybe you could break my heart next summer.
Why bother? It's gonna hurt me. It's gonna kill when you desert me. This happened to me twice before; it won't happen to me anymore.
(Yeah!)
It's a crying shame; I'm all alone. Not with you, nor her, nor anyone. Won't you knock me on my head. Crack it open let me outta here.
Why bother? It's gonna hurt me. It's gonna kill when you desert me. This happened to me twice before; it won't happen to me anymore.
